cuz me knees have been bitch
andd other body parts as well
i cried a lot and tried to keep it down since i just paniced before i even heard the diagnose
i have fucking growing problems COOL
he sent me to another doc tomorrow but he said it's probably growing problems, means my knees get loose cuz i grow
RIDICILOUS
i might need surgery u__u i'm so paniced i could cry all the time beacouse this is just wrong
i mean c'mon i can't move normally since i GROW

;;;n;;; i wanna dieeeee
what should i do? i'm skipping school today beacouse of this and i'm missing half of the school tomorrow as well
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
at least i can draw
c8

;o;
I'm exhausted every day i come to home. I could just fall asleep right now as well.
It's this time of year but i've never been this tierd... jeeze, where did you go, sun?
That explains why i haven't updated anything. I'm simply too tierd and that causes me art block at some point
I tried drawing yesterday = totally fail
I wanna finnish my trades but i'm too tierd to do even that
Bc this is freaking annoying I SEE EVERYTHING IN MY HEAD WHY CAN'T I DRAW IT?!

Okay other than that
When i get my ability back... aaand after finishing trades
IT'S TIME FOR GIFTS!
i know xmas isn't too close yet, but that wont stop me |D;
I'm going to do gifts for people i've always wanted to / meant to
I'm not even sure who i've said that, i mean I REALLY MEAN IT but it's just that... i forget, fail aaand lose the time
>:I

I ALSO STARTED KINGDOM HEARTS AGAIN WOW I LOVE THAT GAME MORE THAN I THOUGHT
last time i sucked at it _badly_ since i played KH 2 first and... Sora just does move more quickly and easily in that game.
Also, i'm not stuck in Colossus I DON'T WANNA TRAIN BOHOO WHY PHIL?! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?!
oh yeah i also wanna do tons of game fan-art
_not gonna happen cuz i need more time_

OH NO DON'T YOU THINK I FINISHED BOTHERING YOU WITH THIS JOURNAL I STILL HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY AHHSGASYGDGBID
should i get KH days? i'm not sure if i want it or anything, i need your opinions since i know that couple people have bought it.
THERE'S TOO MANY GAMES I WANT TALES OF THE ABYSS, UNCHARTED 2, MIRRORS' EDGE, KH DAYS ANDAND BOHOO TALES OF VESPERIA HRN
[link] cool song plz
[link] and this I'M ADDICTED TO IT

uh yeah what's up guys?

When you need to get your mind outta something
I usually pick games c;
SO I NEED YOU GUYS TO HELP ME
I need games. It's suprising, since i'm really open to new games and all, but it needs to me confincing one before i actually buy it.
Aaaaand since xmas is coming, couple cool games in my wishlist wouldn't hurt, haha~
Right now there's Mirrors' Edge, one hella good looking game. And i heard it's good... Since we're getting PS3 i'm definetly getting it.

So yeah, i bet you guys can all name one game that i should get.
If you need to hear what kind of games i like, here's couple;
Persona 3 fes
Persona 4
Kingdom Hearts 1&2
Black & White 2
The World Ends With You
Pokemon (duh pokemon is a legend)
Old Spyros
Halo

Also, i'm thinking about Tales of Symphonia, i've heard it's pretty good and it doesn't seem bad, to be exact... Also KH days seems to be good since i'm a fan c': And definetly getting Persona 3 portable and KH Birth By Sleep when they come, that's why i need to buy PSP... Also, i heard left for dead 2 is gonna be awesome, agreements?

SO YEAH
any games for Xbox, PC, PS2, PS3, PSP and NDS?
I will love you if you help me, games mean a lot to me, haha <3333333

Don't you guys worry
Ilu so much <3333333332
I talked with my friends, it helped a lot~
I broke up with ~Zalazar
I dunno what i can say here but i believe she's fine with it
i always wanna be her friend tho... young love hurts
i was blinded with a fantasy. There's no such a thing as perfect couple
there is no perfect partner, there's just people you like and people you don't like
i hate it to end like this, but i guess i have no choice if i wanna be happy

Maybe this is a new chapter... Maybe something will happen
And i'm looking foward to it

so much
what i'm going trough now is terrible
i know what i need to do
but i will hurt someone i don't want to
but if i don't do it, i will only hurt myself
i lied to myself, and i realized it
i know no-one is perfect, everyone does mistakes
but why does it have to turn out like this?
i guess this kind of stuff needs to happen sometimes

guys
i could cry until my eyes would drop off
someone help me out of this
i can't take it myself